i now know what you don’t want me to. and it breaks every part of me to let you go. not that there was anything more than ever was. but that there should have been and you wanted it. and so did i. somehow, we crossed paths on this at one point but at different times. whatever happened to make it the way it is now is as if there were some external uncontrollable force that now shows we can’t be the true people we want to be for each other.